i woke up with a massive pounding sledgehammer headache today. must have been the dreams. the dreams that are starting to haunt me again. its really quite true you dream about what you think about in the day. i've been thinking too much about things again. i can't wait to get a bigger room. i'm getting quite claustrophobic in mine. cos of the photos i put up actually. too many memories are just suffocating me. there's no where i can look without thinking of things. and yet at e same time i can't bear to take e photos down. i took one down. but not the rest. its driving me insane actually. i can't wait for exams to be over. then i can be out everyday. breathing in the cool air. roaming the streets, parks and whatever. its always been the memories that make me feel so suffocated in spore. and yet at the same time, nothing brings me greater comfort and warmth than these memories -.-

i think i've stood in the shadows waiting for too long already

sometimes i wish ppl would be alot more open. abit more observant. to see things for what they really are, and not be blinded by one's beliefs, doubts or whatever. and also, we tend to take things at face value too often. its feels like so many ppl just take things for granted, never thinking about why they happen. why things are repeated. we are all too wrapped up in ourselves, too wrapped up in our dignity, and our own rules that we tend to impose on others. that everything just seems to end up more as an act than anything else. hah.

the only good thing today was okonomiyaki, shib & cui/sam. haha.